29th of May

29.05.2022


2.17

I can't sleep. I am trying...but it's super hot, mosquitos biting me every minute and I'm in such pain. Painkillers knocked me down for a bit but didn't help in general.

Overthinking. Overthinking. Overthinking.

So many things on my mind from yesterday's night. What should I do? Like for real? It feels disappointing. I actually feel like a disappointment. Why? Well that's a good question...there could be plenty of answers really.

I really wanted to make a difference this time, on this camino. Have a break. Enjoy whatever I'll see, whatever I hear, smell...everything. Even push my limits a little bit, but not too much. Try things I've always wanted or I've simply never tried. Talk to beautiful strangers, etc etc...

It's officially third day and I'm about to take a break. I won't do any conclusion yet, but of course I am a little bit worried and already making back up plans if my health situation won't get better.


10.30

sitting in front of the church. we are taking it really, really slow today. such a peace on this way, almost nobody around. silence. only birds are chirping. we stopped for a coffee in the morning, had something to eat. then we followed yellow arrows again. continued though lovely eucalyptus forest. I love the smell. It's healing. I am blessed just to be able to walk and be in less pain then yesterday, really. I would like to walk only 12 km today and then hitch hike to Correco, where we booked accommodation (where I've been twice already). i'm trying to only enjoy walking and not thinking about anything else. but it's interesting. this camino is completely different. it's more about me, my personal issues. so many thing are unfolding. so many topics coming up through walking or talking with Misa. It hurts to actually allow yourself to feel stuff you either didn't have time for or simply didn't want to accept.

2.17

I can't sleep. I am trying...but it's super hot, mosquitos biting me every minute and I'm in such pain. Painkillers knocked me down for a bit but didn't help in general.

Overthinking. Overthinking. Overthinking.

So many things on my mind from yesterday's night. What should I do? Like for real? It feels disappointing. I actually feel like a disappointment. Why? Well that's a good question...there could be plenty of answers really.

I really wanted to make a difference this time, on this camino. Have a break. Enjoy whatever I'll see, what I hear, smell...everything. Even push my limits a little bit, but not too much. Try things I've always wanted or I've simply never tried. Talk to beautiful strangers, etc etc...

It's officially third day and I'm about to take a break. I won't do any conclusion now yet, but of course I am a little bit worried and already making back up plans if my health situation won't get better.

10.30

sitting in front of the church. we are taking it really, really slow today. such a peace on this way, almost nobody around. silence. only birds are chirping. we stopped for a coffee in the morning, had something to eat. then we followed yellow arrows again. continued though lovely eucalyptus forest. I love the smell. It's healing. I am blessed just to be able to walk and be in less pain then yesterday, really. I would like to walk only 12 km today and then hitch hike to Correco, where we booked accommodation (where I've been twice already). i'm trying to only enjoy walking and not thinking about anything else. but it's interesting. this camino is completely different. it's more about me, my personal issues. so many thing are unfolding. so many topics coming up through walking or talking with Misa. It hurts to actually allow yourself to feel stuff you either didn't have time for or simply didn't want to accept.

14.51

when I arrived to Viana do Castelo (13km) I had another break with coffee. I wasn't still sure whether I stay or continue. Met other pilgrims (Sheyla and Melissa). Then I decided to continue further. Felt sign of energy so I had some faith that I can easily finish 8 more kilometres. Well after a while I felt really strange pain in my left leg. Very similar to that times before I broke my femur. So I started to be really worried. And I still am. Walking super slow and limping. Now sitting at the bus station and trying to get out of my head and finish last 4, 5 kilometres. I can still remember the moment of breaking the bone so sometimes I have to stop cause this shit is getting too real. Nobody is around. Doesn't look good at all. But I have to continue, there's no other way. So I keep praying (literally) so I can do it. That my body can last for those few kilometres left.

Fingers crossed!

16.10

still on the way. decided to take a detour cause I saw a supermarket on the way. If you are wondering what I eat thru the day: morning - pastry/cookies, after some time I have fruits and more cookies. In the evening it's pastry or crackers and soup from pack and if i'm lucky, veg as well. Today I treated myself with more sweets, beer and huge pepper.

While I was shopping and nobody was watching I used tester of some parfume cause I really needed that trust me. It's my tradition lol.

Also I was really naive. Even if you try to keep it lowcost minimum is like €20. Still haven't used hammock tho. It was impossible so far. With how I felt physically. We'll see how it goes, need to keep it even lower from now on. Anyway, 3km left and I'll be there. Experiencing luxury which is solid bed, nice albergue and normal towel!! And hopefully I'll get some sleep today.

17.36

i speeded up for last 3 km, just to get it done. This albergue was worth it. I'm just lying in bed! With duvet! I used towel! Fuck me. It feels so good. I did check in and then washed all my clothes by hand (i always hate it especially after such a tough day like this).

There's so many people. That's quite annoying I must say. And all those germans. I mean nothing against but they're just annoying...just waiting for Misa to arrive, can't wait to have her here, really...

My feet are full of blisters. I think I need to use needle today and pop them out. Also I wanna do some more editing of all those videos so far, eat my noodle soup and see what route I choose tomorrow...but I can't get out of this comfi bed. My body is quite done after (only!) 3 days of painful walking (80.5km).